....Pushed Away....

days get worst..

2009-11-13T02:22:00.000-08:00

my days can't get any worst...
i wonder did she read the off9 msg i send 2 her..
haiz..its been 2days..since i send her tat msg..
this r some quotes i made myself..this is my life n how i feel..

"you got a mouth like a razor-blade,it cuts so deep.
So kiss my wrist,my neck and giv me eternal sleep"

"Flowers tat i gave you died,been lost,thrown away,just like me!"

"i cry for the times you were almost mine,
I cry for the moments i have left behind,
I cry for the pain,the lost,the old the new,
I cry for the times i thought i had you"

"The day I met you my life changed. The way you make me feel is hard to explain. You make me fall deeper for you everyday"

"The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else in return."

"It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does."

"you're my drug,and you think i would learn my lesson
but i still like very much 2 overdoes on you"

"Every night i talk to the stars pretending its you.. it acts just like you tho.. far away and never replies to my questions"

"so take this razor,sign your name across my wrist,
so everyone will know who left me like this"

"2day was on of those day where everything i do
reminded me of you.."

"I enjoy ur warmth bcuz i am cold,I appreciate your life bcuz I am in darkness"

"No,I can't erase the wrong i've done but i hope u can giv me another chance
bcuz if u were me,you would wan the same and i'd giv tat chance 2 u"

she said this 2 herself..my love life suxx..when can i really get a real one??
she said it on 23/09/09...
wadeva things i did..she didn't bother 2 care..
the ans 2 her love life:i'm here...
me n her we were gonna go out only 2 of us alone..
but then the timing was so wrong..someone took her..tat's why people..

"SOME TIMES R PERFECT BUT SOMETIMES
THE PERFECT TIMES R THE TIMES TAT AREN'T"..
do those who are quiet..infront of the person tat they like/love
nvr a day.. u must not keep quiet cuz they'll slowly drift apart frm u..

another pain..

2009-11-10T21:57:00.000-08:00

went 4 soccer training 2day..
wasn't bad at all dun wanna elaborate...

after soccer training some1 go meet his so called "sister"
frm jus now till now he bz with "sister"
its like nvm..i'm jus kinda pissed off with him..
tats all...
saw her 2day...nothing much though..
sry lah readers nothing 2 say much..2 lazy...

girl i'm here 4 u,i ain't angry at u..
can't u see i'm here...
labels:imy..

2009-11-10T05:49:00.001-08:00

I'm gonna change blogskins..so dun worry readers this blog won't b dead ok??
dun die bcuz of my blog..dun giv up hope on my blog lol joking nia..wakakaka

FOOLISH PEOPLE

2009-11-09T22:43:00.000-08:00

TO SOMEONE WHO HATE AZRUL.. n LELAKI..

THE SOMEONEI REFFERING 2 IS NOT FASHA LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ITS
DARRELL FRM MY CLASS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DUNNO ANYTING DUN EXTRA LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IRRITATING WHEN PEOPLE WHO MAKE PROBLEMS HAV MISUNDESTOOD
THE FUCKING SITUATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!UNDERSTAND???
KANNI NA BEH SI BEH HAO LIAN ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DUN B FOOLISH LAH IF I WERE 2 SAY FASHA I'll SAY HER...
UNDERSTAND???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????/

FUCK U BITCHES

2009-11-09T20:30:00.000-08:00

i'm here 2 day 2 post abt PEOPLE WHO COMES 2 MY BLOG NOTHING 2 DO FIND PROBLEM
Dear READERS,
THER's BEEN SOME i will not say vulgarities..to them..bcuz i'm A PEACE PERSON..
U GUYS WHO WANNA FIND PROBLEM
READ THIS..
I NVR TALK 2 HER ANYMORE
U GUYS MAKE ME THINK ITS HER..
so WATS UR PROBLEM NOW??
I knw i accidentally CALLED HER THINGS that I SHOULDN'T SAID..
BUT OI!!!
THE FIGHT IS OVER...
I JUS KEEP QUIET..SHE WAN 2 BE ANGRY WIT ME IS HER PROB..
UNDESTAND...
SHE WANNA STOP THIS THING SO I DIDN'T EVEN STARTED..
BUT U GUYS DID..
U GUYS MAKE ME FIGHT AGAIN WIT HER...
WADS UR DEAL...COMING 2 PEOPLE'S BLOG DISTURB...n FIND PROBLEM..
1st DYANA BLOG
2nd MY BLOG
3rd her blog izzit??
MY BLOG AIN'T A ****KING ARENA...
me n her we're THRU NO MORE FIGHTING..
MY LAST WORDS 4 u two who find problems..
I DUN WAN 2 FIND PROBLEMS WIT U GUYS so PLS UNDERSTAND...

soccer training..

2009-11-09T02:44:00.000-08:00

SOCCER TRAINING DISASTER...
went 2 soccer training 2day..
came with some1..when ther met sis maira..
she listening 2 her mp3..
after training go hougang point with some1..
go buy tat som1 food for him..i jus bought apple pie..
so u knw i went wher right?MAC
me n tat som1 go walk2 go cheers then walk2 som1 saw his so called
sis..then he go talk2 with her..while i walk away..
he talk 4 so fucking long i go outside kfc n sit n relax..
after so fucking long mins..he sms me COME HERE..
i go ther he ask me stay around..i lied 2 him i was talking 2 my primary school
frens..then i go back 2 kfc as usual..
wait..wait...wait..n waited..
4 so fucking long i when walk2 n then decided go meet som1..then go ther he wasn't ther
i'm like sial lah bastard sia..go home nvr tell..then saw sis angela..
she n tifanny..
so i was fucked up but control temper..
then walk the way go home..suddenly saw sis maira n som1..at traffic light
i went ther n jus ignore bcuz was fucked up wit tat som1 n listen 2 my psp songs..

wher r u now?u ignore me even when i was ther..
i wanna see ur beautiful smile..ur laughter..i miss u so much
labels:imy..

miserable..

2009-11-07T04:25:00.000-08:00

MISERABLE...
2day was not bad..ride my GT bike..played with my frens,
my frens fren matrep invite the whole MATREP BIKE GANG..damn fucking embarassing
they shout vulgarities between each other..haiyo..
frm bad 2 worst
things between me n her jus can't get any better..
tagg her blog also wrong..wat the fuck now??
i cant jus let go her like tat..sure people say must let go..
after all heartbroken moments is till went thru i'm stronger than myself
i wen thru the times she n my bestfren stead.. which = 3 TIMES...
i jus kept quiet all this while n she like didn't bother she jus..bcame happy when she stead
with him..
she say i not her close friend..i'm like..oh my..
girl i lifted u up when u get heartbroken,after all of ur break ups..
i was ther 4 u..thru all this time..can't u see..??when u break with him the 2nd time
u sms me everyday we chat as though we're steady..
i promise tat i'll take u out after eoy..but during eoy..u n him.. were 2gether..
at that moment..girl u broke my heart till i collapse..
u were happy when we both text each other..
now we're fighting...n now we're no longer frens..n u dun even wanna talk 2 me..
i ask u can't we settle it.. n now she say in her blog stop disturbing me i hate u..
say i'm part of the irritating humans..
how could u say this.. i knw wad i call u..i was so wrong i knw
u too shldn't call me tat..people say im such a fool 4 loving u..
i didn't think so..cuz ur a the most precious thing tat my heart is beating 4..
if u think i'm lying 4 wat i wanna lie 2 do i everytime express my feelings..
every sms i will say i love u..u'll jus tell me u dunno wad 2 say...

do u pause n consider ur actions??are u bothered y the choice u made??
a song 4 u..

Oh oh oh yeah
BabeLast time I thought we had this talk
Girl you were getting ready to leave
I thought that baby you were done
Cause for a while you could barely look at me
This time I thought that we'd be fine
That I'd forget the things that you said
I tried crossing out your words
But baby you can not forget the past

Oh oh oh oh babe

Can not forget the past
Oh oh oh oh, Still baby (Babe)I'm so unpredictable
You don't know what to think
So unemotional
Wonder if I'm even still in love
You see I don't know what to tell you now
It's always harder the second time around
I'm so unpredictable
Just like you used to be So unemotional
Girl I can't forget the way you were with me
I don't know what to tell you now
It's always harder
The second time around
The second time around
We tried going back to Joe's
That always was our favourite place
Long rides baby by the coast
Do you remember where we stayed
Last time we where hanging out
You were acting kind of strange
Now it's the second time around I'm sorry now it's me that feels this way
Oh oh oh oh babe(My heart just speaks to me)
It's me that feels this way
Oh oh oh babe I now you are the one that is hurting
I'm so unpredictable
You don't know what to think
So unemotional
Wonder if I'm even still in love
You seeI don't know what to tell you now
It's always harder the second time around
I'm so unpredictableJust like you used to be
So unemotional Girl I can't forget the way you were with me
I don't know what to tell you now
It's always harder
The second time around I'm not sure the best way to say this
But I can't pretend to love you no more babe
This ferris wheel's got me crazy Maybe the second time around is not meant for us babe
Not meant for us babe hey-yeah!
I'm so unpredictable
You don't know what to think
So unemotional Wonder if I'm even still in loveYou see
I don't know what to tell you now
It's always harder the second time around
I'm so unpredictableJust like you used to beSo unemotional
Girl I can forget the way you were with me
I don't know what to tell you now
It's always harder
The second time around I'm so unpredictable
You don't know what to think
So unemotional
Wonder if I'm even still in love
You see I don't know what to tell you now
It's always harder the second time around
I'm so unpredictable Just like you used to be
So unemotional Girl I can forget the way you were with me
I don't know what to tell you now
It's always harder
The second time around
The second time around

holidays!

2009-11-03T19:10:00.000-08:00

HOLIDAYS=BORING
haiz..still got the frenship crisis
bro goin malaysia for 4 weeks..
haiz..boring sia..
fasha still angry at me haiz...
nas like nothin else 2 do kacau me sia..
facebook quiz my next relationship is fasha n it will last forever
then i like OMG!!she commented dream on..
i like wtf quiz.. only lah...
days keep raining...thers more heartbroken people crying...
i feel sorry 4 them but i'm one of them...

i knw wad i said wasn't clever..watcha say girl?
when the roof came down the truth came out i jus didn't knw wad 2 do..
pls girl i hope u understand..i just erupted frm the fight we both hav..

somethings are meant 2 b change...

2009-11-01T18:41:00.000-08:00

sometimes frens argue am i right?
things can b resolve sooner or later?
eventually some people treats frenz like dog..
some are good at pretending...
some talk behind ur back...
some r jus i dunno...

TO Nasrah my beloved SIS/a great fren..
we fought during the first 3 months bcuz i dunno y
u were so mad at me..
sooner we grow a strong bond..
we bcame bro n sis..which i'm happy..
but guess it ended fast...i knw wad i called ur fren..but u nvr knew the whole story..
u jus suddenly create a big fuss...i advice u alot of things bcuz i care abt u..
ur equal 2 ur fren...
stead with a guy nvm..but ended up heartbroken..tat's the thing i worry..
u hide ur sadness away n show ur brightness
but i knw ur sad...i'm ur bro i knw...i advice u alot of things bcuz i've seen it happen 2 alot of
peoples..i dun care if it happens 2 me is bad i dun care i wan my frens,my own sis 2
spend their time happily n b with their guys/girls with no regrets...
u think wat i'm a heartless dude tat only care abt myself??well ur fucking wrong..
i care more abt u guys then myself..u guys dun even bother abt me..u guys always sad i was ther 2 help..when i'm fucking hurt inside u all jus keep quiet...
u tell me lah u like anot if ur bestfren stead with the guy u love??
3times??? u like anot???the guy u talk always...u like anot??i'm sure u dun right?
u all pretend u care but u guys dun...prove 2 me wat u guys care abt lah...
advice is one good thing..but did u reflect wad i said 2 urself anot??!!
i'm sure u didn't...i advice u 2 stead with yasar its bcuz..his like close 2 u always..but
u dun think..say he short all tat..tell him u giv him 3 years 2 change all stuff. then u will
stead with him??u think guys r wat?robot ??ask go repair must hav warranty???
tats so fucking bad..he really thinks wad u said is true u knw?
i bet u didn't right??!!u think he'll take as a joke? he truly loves u...understand???
u guys hate me..i dun care understand??ask me change 4 wat??u think i wat ur dog arh??
change my attitude??dun say people pls lah...u guys ur ownselves change..dun act infront of
me u change..in my entire life u guys i tot were the best frens i ever had..but i dun think so
READERS U TELL ME...wher got true frens yesterday fren suddenly next day dun fren u??
tats called CRAP...bullshit undestand? only one guy promised me this..
cross our heart..we promised 2 stick 2gether nvr break our frenship..remain bloodbros 4 life..
so good acting eh?the person knws who i'm refering 2...
the only people i like n make their own decisions are..Yasar,Julius,Kelvin,Melvin...
eventhough u ask this people they'll think abt it...howeva this people still fren me...
now i'm putting my trust on this people...
seriously i'm sick of this..i'm not ur toy arh..my last speech 4 u guys
Were u ther 4 me??Did u even care abt me??alot of incidents happen 2 me n only
yasar,samuel n raynald help...nvr a day i tot u guys will stab me in the back..nvr...i nvr think of it...

REASON

2009-11-01T18:28:00.000-08:00

Yasar aka MATREP...

julius pang..aka D.J.X

listen fellow readers i've been away this past few days..

last thrusday went 2 kranji..not bad arh the trip

but the tour guide is so ****ing irritating..

i jus keep quiet listen 2 my mp4...

some photos i took...

2009-10-28T08:15:00.000-07:00

photos of frens..

frenship

2009-10-28T07:40:00.000-07:00

FRIENDSHIP=means a new stranger u met n get 2 knw them better.
some frenship last 4eva,some end so fast b4 time could even bother 2 turn back..
a post abt to the people i cared but don't care abt me..

To the once who were bro..
Darrel=my gay,frendly,copycat bro..
u were the one tat i talk mostly abt girls,u were the one i kept secrets with,u
treated me when i bo money,i treated u when u bo money,even u had some secrets
tat u only told me n faisal i still keep it..ur like a memorial stone 4 me 2 keep n treasure..
4 now n 4eva but i guess our frenship ended 2 day..28th/10/09

DINESH=my funny,joker,irritating yet a good bro..
u were the one tat talk abt soccer,u were the one tat kept secrets with,i
blanja me sometimes n i blanja u also..eventhough u n faisal were the bestest
bro u treated me like faisal also..but i guess our frenship ended 2 day..28th/10/09

FAISAL=my funny,joker,irritating yet a good bro..
u were the one tat talk abt ur family problems,u were the one tat kept secrets with,
u blanja me i blanja u,eventhough u n dinesh were the bestest duos..u still treated me
as dinesh..i'm very thankful 2 find a fren like u..but i guess our frenship ended 2 day..28/10/09

BOON FU=short,muscular,funny bro..
eventhough i tried bein closed 2 u,i guess it wasn't enough cuz i dunno if i shld trust u but i did,
u were the one tat i cared u kinda get bullied always but i try ask the bullies go away frm u
i'm glad tat eventhough we weren't close u were still my fren..but i guess our frenship
ended 2day..28/10/09

Melvin=blur sotong,rich good bro
eventhough me n u weren't tat close i seem 2 b closer 2 u,if u remembered tat day tat i help ur group history project n something happen 2 u n i was ther??remember??u were the type very quiet but frendly,seldom blanja but also good lah...i appreciate all the help frm u but i guess our frenship ended 2day..28/10/09

LAST BUT NOT LEAST FASHA
FASHA=GIRL TAT I LOVE N CARED..CLOSE FREN
eventhough we didn't manage 2 b a couple,i was ther for u everytime,but sad u didn't cared for me all this while,i'm the one tat helped u when u were heartbroken, u stead
with my best bro 3 times..i can't believe it i'm here waiting 4 u..helping u..
i always say i love u everyday 2 show tat i'm here for u..anytime,u said 2 me u were goin
2 find guys with a good heart? then wad am i heartless?waiting for u,thinking of u everyday..
sad we could hav been but..i guess our frenship ended 2day..28/10/09

song 4 u baby...

2009-10-28T03:08:00.000-07:00

song 4 u baby...
These song dedicated 2 NUR IRFASHA BINTE MOHD ROSLI

I know they wanna come and separate us but they can't do us nothin
Your the one I want and Im a continue lovin
Cause your considered wifey and Im considered husband
And Im a always be there for you
And either way you look at it
I aint goin no where from my muffin
Cause she gonna hold it down, cant no body tell her nothin
You got the kind of love that always make up after fussin
And thats what gets me closer to you
And no one knows Why Im into you
Cause you'll never know what its like to walk in our shoes
And no one knows, the things we've been through
Can never measure up to half of what I put you through
Thats why we'll break through And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I dont care what they do
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Seems like every day that go by things are gettin harder
Want to be the one that give you the whole enchilada
Cause I know what my baby like, ?? that Prada Louis bag to match with the shoes
All about knowing you Im into doing things to keep her longer
Stickin together forever, watch it grow stronger
Thats the way it has to be, everything proper
Keepin it always true And no one knows
What Im into you Cause you'll never know what its like to walk in our shoes
And no one know, the things we've been through
Can never measure up to half of what I put you through
Thats why we'll break through
And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I dont care what they do Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
You are everything in my life see the joy you bring
And aint no one I can compare you to
And I know that you will never walk away from me no matter what
And thats why I plan to do the same thing for you
And I want you to know And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
I wanna be with you And I dont care what they do
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I dont care what they do
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you

fren or dun fre..

2009-10-28T02:33:00.000-07:00

i tot 2day was the happiest day
of my life.. i also dunno y..
howeva ended up

MY FUCKED UP DAY OF MY LIFE...
all the sudden DINESH,FAISAL,DARRELL,
BOON FU,MELVIN but most of all
FASHA...

THE GIRL I LOVE N THE BROS TAT I CARED...
all the sudden dun fren me??
i was like WAT THE FUCK SIA!!!!!
weird lah sia..now wad they follow the plan??
stupid lah sia..wad kind of frens wan change attitude...
-_-" i also was like attitude like tat only wan change??
tat also haiz..PATHETIC..u hear me readers PATHETIC
frenz like tis??u will ended up being used by them sooner or later..
so wen slack with some of bros n sis...
then after tat bro 2 bro talk with yasar only
cuz i trust him the most among all other than melvin gan..
I'm happy i hav other bros n sis..
BROS
YASAR!,KELVIN!,JULIUS!,RAIHAN!,GLEN!,RAYNALD!,WEIKIT!,
SIS
NASRAH!,ANGELA!,AIN!,SHERMAINE!,ERIKA!,
some of this people understand my pain..n understand me..
they feel me ..even if wadeva happens we ALL still b united BROS N SIS 4EVA!!

missing

2009-10-27T06:08:00.000-07:00

i dunno wad i do sia...
i'm so troubled...
feeling down always...

wad did i do wrong this time??
seriously?my brain is like blank
i love her n now i dunno like feeling
i'm away frm her or the opposite wateva
lah..
i'm so fucked up...i dun wanna lose her anymore..

u baby..

2009-10-26T07:13:00.000-07:00

Here's my heart tonight
'Cause, baby, all I want is you
Am I good enough for your kiss
I give myself for you
Nothing left to lose
And you're the stuff that dreams are made of
Because the truth is I LOVE YOU

haiz.. finally get 2 talk 2 her..
but then dunno if she still angry at me anot
i hope not..cuz i dun wanna lose her..
its so hard...2 let go the one u love 2 another guy
haiz..

Fasha i really LOVE you..

left alone

2009-10-24T19:35:00.000-07:00

i was so wrong for so long
Only trying 2 get you..

this post is dedicated 2 people who trust,love,care for me
Sisters 1st kay?
ERIKA class 1e3
u are very kwai,blurr n egocentric type of person
but however u were the best sister i knew..
u were ther when i nid someone 2 talk 2...
u were very caring..u understand my situation
even tat time u hav ur own probs u still help me..
Angela
hey angla bangla! even though we had a rough past
u still were ther giving me a helping hand
now tat ur my sister ur very caring,helpful
but ur usually asking me 2 4get her so i dunno
Nasrah
hey nasi lemak!jkjk
even though me n u had a rough past u still
bcame my sister,u told me i was better with her then him..
but now u also dunno..i also dun mind...
ur basically a caring person
Ain
even though u got some problems u also were there
ur jus like my other sisters ^-^
Shermaine
hey sister! play xbox always arh?naughty girl
teehe thx for being my sister
n bein ther 4 me like my other sisters did

Bros?i dun think hav only yasar i dunno
Thank you my beloved sisters u help me alot
i'll b ur best bro ever!!!!!!!

i dun wanna lose u,u dun understand my feelings
but i understand urs..can't we talk it through?

i lost...

2009-10-24T02:18:00.000-07:00

i'm so fucking confuse...
i can't stand it.....
i can't blieve me n her are we not goin
2 b together?

y izzit the small problem n then turn into a
BIG ONE!
I really love her..i nid her
i'm always ther 4 her
but she wasn't ther 4 me...
wad the FUCK should i do??
dun care abt her?Ignore her?

careless

2009-10-23T08:52:00.000-07:00

i'm so foolish 2 start a fight with her..
one small problem turn out a big fuss..
now its getting worst..
we're no longer frenz..
walau so fucked up sia..mayb with her or myself..
i dun wanna lose her sia...
wait for her fucking long n losing 2 chance 2 b
close 2 her like i used to..
does she care abt me?Or does she care abt guys?
i'm fucking confused!
thx 2 my sisters
i'll like 2 thank 2 angela,shermaine n ain for bein ther 4 me...
i almost killed myself yesterday...by drowning but i dunno y...
i'm still here..
during tat time i had a concussion..
all my good frenz were ther,their faces..
telling me don't..
straight away i stopped sia..
my frenz keep telling she ain't worth it,she can fuck off sia..
attitude problem.. haiz i dunno lah...
i waited 2 fucking long..i can't simply lose her jus bcuz of a arguement..
i dun EVER WANNA LOSE HER..
haiz..she said other girls mayb stupid 2 forgiv..
i didn't say until like tat sia..
i'm like wat the fuck..?? hey sia lah jus asking izzit u?
then u start a fuss..i tried 2 lie lah cuz u were the only 2 knw
wad that BASTARD/BITCH said abt wat...

I dunno wanna lose u baby,u'll all tat i need
my L.O.V.E...nvr a sec or a day i stop
thinking of u....even my frenz told me to stop..
i didn't..even ur in the hands of another guy,,
i won't bother 2 stop n care abt u...

further by the minute

2009-10-22T02:47:00.000-07:00

i thought she'll b the same when she break with him on the 1st break..

i guess it didn't went as i thought it will..

nvr thought she'll b so different..

usually it will b me n her only talking,smsing mayb talk on the phone..

now its like i duno how 2 explain its so hard..

i apologise 2 her n gave her a present as a token of an apology..

i ask her do u 4giv me..she answered: wateva luh in malay..

i'm like wat the fuck??haiz..

then later i ask her ans me truthfully..she said if u wan to think i still angry

at you stick 2 it..if u think i'm not angry at u stick to it...

i really love her, i wanna b close with her like i use 2 when she break with him

on the FIRST BREAK...haiz..

i feel so empty..dunno wad the fuck 2 do..talk 2 her nvr reply..

Darrell also change..giv up nasrah now wan 2 b close with fasha..

so fucked up lah sia...

2day!!

2009-10-20T07:57:00.000-07:00

Nas bluekings but fasha pointing middle finger
Naughty girl but me likey2 ^-^

Humaira texting,nad eating...

Zahirah,Ain n Nad..

again its nas,nad n maira but its very black..

Nadirah,nas n maira posing n my 2 fingers hehe

Again nas n maira posing but fasha however
doin the keep quiet sign but smiling so cute sia i like ^-^
Nas,maira n nad posing but fasha didn't,so bad >.<
Nas doin her weird expression >.<
Yasar posing,he wearing darrell's uniform..
Photos took by me ^-^..

2day school was okay..get all result for some subject i pass..
after tat excursion woohoO!! play with yasar on bus we vs each other
playing psp..
when reached 2 n.u.s i sit bside her sia ^-^
so fucking happy n blushing but no one knew i blush..
me n her were goin 2 talk but didn't happen
she bz with her frenz.. sad...
after tat i emoed all the way..
she dun wan reply my smses sia..

I'm glad u move on girl but u dun hav 2 ignore me..
I told u i can b the one 4 u..
I'm sure girl u can trust me...

boring day

2009-10-18T21:03:00.000-07:00

so sian at home...
wanted 2 ask her somthing but her dad took phone...
for me its kinda weird everytime i sms her..dad took phone lah..
i also dunno true or not...haiz..
bored sia at home...
dinesh fucker sia..might as well dun invite me 2 his house..
say family goin out then i call yasar,bastard n julius
yasar say he at dinesh house,bastard say he at his house but then got party sound
julius nvr ans scared bloody fucker sia...
but fun get 2 meet primary school REAL frenz..play l4d at hougang green..
they played much better than my frens i know..

missing u

2009-10-18T07:41:00.000-07:00

I miss everything about you.
I miss siting by your side
And talking about everything.
I miss trying to hide away,
When my cheeks were on fire.
I miss sitting and doing absolutely nothing with you.
And wasting the night away.
But I'm an ordinary fool,Nothing speacial at all,
its because,I also miss everything you said "didn't matter",
Suddenly did.
I even miss those times ,when you talked about him to me,
Those times where I didn't want to listen to it,The truth.
But somehow,hearing it from you,made it sweeter.
I miss everything about you,
And that's what hurt most....

These are the true feelings for you....
Fasha i miss you...

favourite girl...

2009-10-16T20:44:00.000-07:00

I always knew you were the best

the coolest girl i know

so prettier than all the rest

the star of the show

So many times i wished you'd be the one for me

I never knew you'd be like this girl what you do to me

Your who i'm thinking of

girl your my runner up

no matter what you always number one

My prize possesion

one and only

I adore ya

Girl i want ya

the one that i can't live without is you...

pissed off..

2009-10-16T03:46:00.001-07:00

haiz..i'm so pissed off...
with bastard again..
she didn't even bother to talk 2 me only him...
darrell,dinesh n others...
so now wat i'm invisible 2 u izzit??
wat the hell sia..
so wat u stead with him??
that means u forget everything we do 2gether??
wad we talk,laugh n others about??
u completely ignore me??
so i mean nothing 2 u now izit??
when u needed a fren i was ther??
WHY THE FUCKING HELL IS EVERYTHING TURN UPSIDE DOWN??
i love her so much..Betrayal took her...

nothing..

2009-10-15T07:15:00.000-07:00

you can't tell me to heal
and it hurts remembering
how it felt to shut down

Can't be to careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You got to reach a little more
I dunno if i should b by urside..
since that BASTARD always with you...
i tried 2 b the one for you but u just don't see do ya?
all i did for you were meant nothing 2 u...
when Bastard does something its like wat..10times more than wad i do??
he aint better than me...
but wad to expect u wouldn't care..when i gave u my heart,,
i tot u'll treasure it n make it safe.
but no it was thrown away 2 make a space for tha BASTARD...
With every breath i have
I'll always say this to you.."I LOVE YOU"..
if you were to ask me whether i'll love you still until 2mrow morning...
I'll say this "forever n ever babe"..

she's the one...

2009-10-15T05:00:00.001-07:00

seriously..
i'm sick n tired of seeing her with that bastard!!
i cannot tahan lah...
y izzit him???
y must b him??
haiz...
we were so close back then..
me n u were like fireflies that stayed up all night..
when u love sombody,u must learn 2 let them go..
but i won't cuz i know that their relationship cant last long bcuz of him..
the chances of me n her 2 b 2gether were so damn FUCKING CLOSE..
BCUZ OF THAT BASTARD...
i swear to god..readers if u were me i bet u gonna bashed him face up yup?
everytime i wanted when i see him sitting bside her n close 2 her..
seriously lah sia..his a very despo type..
aim for nasrah..then angela..then nasrah.. now her??
seriously lah sia..if his ex were here he'll confirm stead with her
faster than a speeding bullet..

if u can see me through this eyes...this eyes...look into my heart..
you'll know that i'm the one waiting for u all these months..
but i dun see u looking n thinking ur just thinking of him most of the times..
i tot u finding a guy with a good heart??but looks like ur jus like ur oldself finding a guy with looks n all that..i feel so alone now tat she's with him..
nvr b4 she sms me..not one time at all..
i'm so heartbroken..my heart was thrown away by her...i bet she dun giv a damn only her fiance she cared about..

fucked up....

2009-10-14T23:28:00.000-07:00

wtf is wrong with my bro's??
that bastard got stead so wat??
then everything got secret..
everyone all now getting further away from me..
go play l4d nvr invite...
chibai kia..
everything all got secrets..
y sia..
bro's falling apart...
one by one...
FUCK OFF BASTARD ...everytime get closer 2 her make me sick...

betrayal..

2009-10-13T23:45:00.000-07:00

seriously lah sia..
y all of the he stead with her??
then all my frens all separated..
WTF is this sia...
u call this frens??
darrell n faisal were so close 2 me..
WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS SIA???
Y all of the sudden my group being thorn apart by him??

lie..

2009-10-13T04:14:00.000-07:00

wow...
whe you broke up with him..
u were crying ur ass off....
u talk 2 me like i'm the only fren...
u said 2 me u dun wanna think/talk about relationship..
"I wan 2 focus on Eoy"
liar...lied 2 me...
when ask u for stead u said i dun wanna think...
when comes 2 him.. u change already...
now ur sticking ur ass close 2 him??
said 2 me u finding a guy with a good heart??
so i wat??Heartless??
i no heart izzit???
if u wanna get pushed around,heartbroken,dumped..
be MY GUEST...
dun come crying 2 me if u n him break...
I'll say SERVE YOU RIGHT...

its too late..

2009-10-09T05:29:00.000-07:00

its too late...
i lost her...
she's in the hands of another guy...
this is the way you left me i'm not pretending...
no hope no love no glory...
No happy ending...
my heart tat i give 2 u has been thrown away
2 use the space for that BASTARD...
i guess wad i did 4 her meant nothing 2 her...

admit

2009-10-09T01:52:00.001-07:00

Its so fucking true...
his pm he admit he said i love you..
wow..
can say stead with her break 4wat stead back again..
chi bai lah u dun pretend can...
ur nothing but a bastard
wow..u really can brainwashed her...
congratz sia if u n her stead..
it'll jus b a big mistake 4 her...
ur an asshole understand...
u dun deserve girls like her..
u only know how 2 break their hearts...
u bastard...

apologise

2009-10-09T01:07:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry wad i said..

it was all a misunderstanding..

his msn name n urs r the same

it jus pisses me off...

when i chat with you,u left me alone...

u gave me IGNORANCE...

haiz...even if tat so..

i still feel you n him both like each other..

u told me u kinda like me a bit after the break

then told me its fading away..

i'm such a fool believing u said tat..

after school saw him getting nearer 2 you..

jus pisses me off...

if wad i did for you means nothing...

tell me now...I can't stand it...

congratz

2009-10-08T07:45:00.000-07:00

Congratz 2 the new couple in 1A2
KELVIN NG & IRFASHA!!!!!!!!
lets giv a big round of a applause...

wow fasha..2 think that i love u n gave u my heart..
cheer u up when u cry...
make promises tat no guy could make...
told you tat i'll die along by ur side if u died..
i treated u nicely..
told u everything tat u should win award 4 the prettiest girl in the whole world..
i thought u change n find a guy with a good heart..
but u choose kelvin wow..
after wat he did 2 u??
wow i'm surprise...
he treat u like toy u didn't even realise...
i guess u really wan 2 b his toy eh???
well good 4 u...
wasted my effort cheering u up,make u smile make u happy..
but wad i get nothing..but IGNORANCE
talk 2 u ignore me??insist u talk 2 kelvin tat bastard who broke ur heart???
how heartless r u??
I guess tat ur same as other BITCHES...its so true i should seen it from the start..
well guess u won an award 4 the worlds TRULY AMAZING HEARTBREAKER BITCHASS...
u nvr pause 2 consider ur action or his do you????
i guess ur his toy after all eykh??..sms u nvr reply??haiz said u dun like him anymore said 2 me it's fading away..wad bullshit..
if ur heart get broken bcuz of him
GOOOOOOOOOOD FORRRRRRRR YOU!!!!!!!!BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!

lyrics...

2009-10-08T02:24:00.000-07:00

Jus a song i wrote..
Last Goodbye

its been a while
since i last saw your face
that look you gave
i cant seem to erase
words cant describe how i felt inside
when i said my last goodby
eand everyday
i wake up thinking whydid it end that way
you know its just not fair
when you have no say

it felt like a part of me got ripped away
when i said goodbye remember when
you first came through the door
id never felt so glad to see anyone before
you looked into my eyes
i loved you even the
nits hard to compromise i need you back again
and everyday i lay there thinking why did they have to take you away
you know its just not fair
when you have no say
and when you left you took a part of me away
dont wanna say goodbye
i just dont understand why it all had to end
i keep on thinking back
to where it all began
and there no way forget
its hard to not feel regret
i feel so numb inside
without you in my life
so now i guess that its time for me to tell you goodbye
and live the rest of my life
and everyday id wake up thinkin why did it end that way
cause you know it wasnt fair that you had no say
when you left you took a part of me away
but now its time to say goodbyeand everyday
id wake up thinkin why
did it end that way
cause you know it wasnt fair that you had no say
when you left you took a part of me away
but now its time to say goodbye....

SORRY

2009-10-06T03:09:00.001-07:00

haiz..i wonder y...
she ignore me bcuz her ppaid finish??
is tat a fact or false???
I'm fucking clueless
nvm i trust tat its jus bcuz of her ppaid...
i dun care if she says i'm a fool...
i'm the fool who love her n cared 4 her...
Dear Fasha,
Sry 4 being so u knw clueless..i was overreacting...
sry for doin tat...TRULY SORRY...With all my love I'm SORRY

a mysterious hole

2009-10-04T00:01:00.000-07:00

hey freakz..
i dunno y my heart got hole...not physically lah bodoh..
nvr chat with her or sms her 4 one day can make me die...
haiz..i dunno y i feel like she's avoiding me..
it hurts not to see,talk,stare with her...
i dunno lah...
I wan her to see tat i'm the guy 4 her..
but wad you expect... it jus might not come true...
like butterflies when u catch them...
open ur hands they will fly...
only seldom they will stay with you...

some guy wrote this song abt guys mistreated by their gfs..
He can't put into words
Just how she made him melt
She molded folded, pasted and cut
His edited heart was her favorite work of art
And it surprised him every day
They way she made him obey
He can't see clearly
Through love tinted eyes
Her erotic, robotic bedroom lies
Paid off in a blur for the minute he was let inside her
He can't complain about he strain
Of her relationship games
He can't dream vividly
While nightmares run wild
She blocked, locked and mocked his smile
He's been destroyed
Tears come falling from her trained toy
And with a sigh he can't explain whyBut he can't say "goodbye."

Confess

2009-10-01T02:31:00.000-07:00

2day quite boring....
dinesh keep wanting 2 find out more secrets haiz...
irritating sia...
I had wrote a letter and draw her something,confess and ask something 2 her...
As time slowly passes waiting 4 her ans...

I promise you baby I'm all tat u need...
ur precious 2 me..i'll treasure n love you 4eva
but ur blinded by some guys...

it ends..

2009-09-30T02:04:00.000-07:00

alot of things happen i cut it short...
about frendship n the love of my life...

I'm fat,nerd,wear socks high,weird hairstyle..
not fit..tall???..she wan me 2 b like both of some1 u might not know..

I'm not a bodybuilder,runner n athlete???
I'm jus a regular guy whose not fit 2 everything???
Tell me Who THE FUCK WAN b so fit??
Even myself jus wan b a regular guy...
She jus don't appreciate wat i hav n some others dun...
I even gave her my heart...
told her not 2 broke it but nvm i also dun care my heart is always been like tat...
being her tissue,
make her smile when she has a frown...
i jus been disposed by her...

HARI RAYA DAY 5

2009-09-25T22:35:00.000-07:00

Alot of things happen in school...quite boring now adays must study more.. that's wad u get when u play with a girls heart.. now i'll b by herside 4ever n ever..aint no bastard gonna break her heart...

hari raya

2009-09-22T08:00:00.000-07:00

LEKUASIMI!!

WOOHOO FUN SIA GO OUT FAMILY MEET RELATIVES COLLECT HANG BAO!!!

FASHA THIS R MY PICS WE BOTH PROMISED!!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-19T21:05:00.000-07:00

HARI RAYA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOHOO!!!!!!
TO ALL OF MY MUSLIMS N NON-MUSLIMS FRIENDS SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!
IF U GUYS DID ANYTHING WRONG TO ME U GUYS R 4GIVEN EXCEPT 4 U KELVIN NG
WAKKAKAKA ENJOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO

KELVIN NG

2009-09-18T22:09:00.000-07:00

To Kelvin Ng,
I trusted u as my 1st bro ever,put my whole trust in u now ur jus a fag to me.
You said u stead her bcuz of me?Wad crap...I said if u hav no other choices of girls 2 b
ur gf... U stead with her nvr tell me?? so u call this frens??? Seriously readers now the moment of truth all reveals itself.. we promise each other,cross our heart to find a chio gfs but not steal each others... results 2 it:BROKEN PROMISE.. U promised 2 me sommore tat u wouldn't like her... results 2 it:BROKEN PROMISE... Even though i know u like to go out everytime i promise tat i tried my best to go out once in awhile results: PROMISE KEPT..
yesterday the truth reveals eh? you love all this time?? Wad r ur intentions with her..?
if ur not in love with her! FUCK OFF LAH Dun break her heart! U heartLess BASTARD!!!

To Fasha,
Ur my best fren, ur like a sis 2 me not big sis like a lil sis hehe... Congratz 4 u to get 2gether with him... I told u tat i'll make it through with u 2 find the perfect guy..i promised u tat..I'll protect u at all cost,make u smile,go out with u if u no bf,take care of u...
i told u tat nasrah is jus a sis 2 me n i couldn't take her as my gf cuz of kelvin wanted her so much...
the reason i love u is alot...each time we chat i'll always b telling u how beautiful u r,i told u tat if u still can't find tat guy i promised i'll b urs...

this is a song 4 u

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only oneI let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one My only one My only one You are my only, my only one

14/09/09

2009-09-17T03:08:00.000-07:00

14/09/09 is a cursed day 4 me...
ok imagine this readers...
if ur a boy.. the girl u love the most
likes ur bestfren...
but ur bestfren doesn't like her...
on tat day its self ur bestfren make her cry...
bcuz he doesn't wan 2 b with her but only as frens
soon after a few days u see her very cheerful..
u tot she tot through wad u advice her...
on thursday ur fren all start talking abt stuff..
ur bestfren girl that he likes ask u " u sad?"
then u know where ur going right?
u ask ur best fren say...we wan stead but cant/dun want
wad shit is tat...
after all tat.. one of ur other best fren only 1 new...
aint tat fair?
after ur tears drop knowing tat they were going 2 b 2gether...
u check the girl u like blog..IN FRONT OF HER BLOG..
SHE POSTED A PICTURE "I HEART MY BOYFRIEND"
tat was clue no.1
soon u see tat she posted abt the day she cry.. then she wrote after tat it was my happiest day of my life..
aint tat clue no.2?
after tat both resolves which givs u
BESTFREN STEAD WITH BESTFREN GIRLS TAT HE LIKES
but u recall u go way back...
he said he wouldn't stead with her...
now how would u feel???
hiding secrets from u and stead with the girl u love the most...
WELL MY READERS TATS WAD HAPPEN 2 ME RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW THIS DAY...
wad a jackass fren right???

frenz

2009-09-16T23:27:00.000-07:00

Can't believe it happen...
frens trust each other now hide secrets 4ever...
that's how it going 2 b then hav time enjoy without me...
they can stead y dun wan sia.....
bloody chi bai lah...sry readers 2day anger come in alr..
1st make her cry now u say wat can stead but can't/dun wan..
make up ur fucking damn mind lah...
serius shit lah.. i had enough with her waste effot cheering her up...
no1 else cheer her up or help her on tat spot wad do i get..
ANS: HEART BROKEN
piece of crap...jackass...bitchass....bastard...kpkb..
worthless fren.. trusted u so much but ur nothin 2 me
i rather take a piece of shit then u 2 b my fren...

sian day

2009-09-15T23:12:00.000-07:00

Jus watch new moon new trailer cool sia... and michael jackson new movie rocks sia!!
I think i wanna watch with kelvin ng,nasrah n fasha since the movie looks fun..
haiz... i wonder if she notice it anot...
so sian i feel like wan 2 talk 2 her sia face 2 face...
but guess she didn't really like i dunno how 2 explain...
i try 2 help her dunno she got notice...
seeing her suffer breaks my heart...
not seeing her for 1 day also breaks my heart...
wad could possibly could b wrong if me and her were 2 b 2gether...
haiz.... bye bye readers...

why bother...

2009-09-14T23:11:00.000-07:00

why did i even bother....
helping a girl tat u cared and love...
no replys 4 u....
i know i shouldn't even make her feel better....
sucks 2 b helping....
efforts wasted...
heart beats slower...
soon u notice ur nothing 2 her....
even i myself is blind to notice that she doesnt care...
no more caring 4 her....
her suffering is better 4 her....
wad u help already is worthless...
why bother cheering her up when u know...
she will choose cute,handsome guys only...
MY HEART IS RIP-OFF AGAIN....

day5

2009-09-11T08:36:00.000-07:00

Nothing much... test result also i also dunno wad 2 say.. i wonder if she realise it.. CAN't help but wait... thinking 2 much about her makes me go TOBI!!!!!!! Seriously heart keep beating slow everytime not talking 2 her not seeing any photo of hers.... haiz.... keep thinking,keep breathing everytime we aint talking makes my heart beats faster when ur with me, aint joking aint lying so please i dun wan u get hurt haiz...

Day.4

2009-09-09T21:54:00.000-07:00

Not much lately..... So i dunno how to say it... even if we chat its not long 4 5mins and then conversation over.. haiz.. now she leaving 2 johor 4 one day go there breakfast... so wad if one day tat wad people usually say... but 4 me its like 1 year not seeing not talking 2 is a guilt 4 me.. i dun care about people think i emo or wat i emo bcuz i can't stand the pain of hers... how getting break ups with guys that she truely love... EMO DUDE signing off...

Day 3

2009-09-08T23:42:00.000-07:00

Woke bcuz of Wei Kit called me n ask 4 the school no. i was like wtf?? then prepaid finish liao... haiyoo.. so then go toilet nvr bathe 1st just tak a huge pail of water put my head inside... n TADA!! SMELLY BUT FRESH TEEHEE!!! So then downloaded some songs... while i bathe... Few more minutes she went on9 so chatting with her right now... Test result will b posted soon...

Day 2

2009-09-08T00:07:00.000-07:00

Day 2, she's not online yet.... so test result not confirm TEEHEE!! SHORT POST.

Day 1

2009-09-07T02:32:00.000-07:00

another boring day as usual haizz... I nid my freedom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.... Day 1.She didn't sms or anything.. She went online chat 4 few seconds.. Experimentation is still processing.... She played with me tic tac toe... after breakfast me and her chat 4 like 15 smses only.... 2morrow results will b posted..

USUAL SATURDAYS...

2009-09-04T22:27:00.000-07:00

Girl,I'm sure you'll find the guy i hope ur not blind by the looks of him...

I'm so bored... bcuz of fasting month can't go out... 2day i really wanted 2 go fishing with frens..
I dunno y my spine so pain nowadays... Nevermind tat jus now got religious class..
teacher retired haha..i also dun care then change 2 this young teacher 4got her name class kinda bored... then got break me and my fren play naruto ultimate ninja 2 psp..suddenly teacher say break finish then me and him we're like screaming WALAO..teacher ask wat thing?? Then we both say oh my fren took my pencil without asking.. lol then we got break after 2 hours fun sia play naruto i owned my fren 4 times he owned me 1 haha.. tats all focks stay tuned..

If ur finding guys, dun judge by looks..they may look handsome and all
but they aint gonna treat u right..

Pushing me away...EMO OR DUN EMO?

2009-09-04T05:40:00.000-07:00

hey sry readers nvr update yet sry...kinda emo 4 sometimes.... Y r u not replying my msgs???Y??? I'm so thinking that ur pushing me away from urself.... Y sia??? I'm so bored of not talking 2 u thru msgs... Even I wan 2 talk 2 u face 2 face.... I dun wan u get hurt by bastards guys from outside... It BREAKS MY HEART seeing u cry... When ur gone i ask if ur ok...but ended u didn't reply my msgs...Y??? Y r u threating me like this.... I like when we're both smsing on the phone asking wad ur doin all that... It feels so right 2 talk 2 u like ur the closest one 2 me...haish...

Results kinda ok..not 2 proud of it...

Gonna show u some drawings of mine ^-^...

BREAK UP OR RESTART?

2009-08-27T01:27:00.000-07:00

Sry nvr post 4 a long time...
I've been thinking why girls that guys like always they get crush...I'm not trying 2 say girls are bad but some are just doing their jobs breaking guys heart worthless bitches..Breathe on bitches may u get rape...I decided 2 go my usual way...Thx 4 the stead bitch...Nice trap u set up or should i call it PITY trap hole...u should win an award seriously...

Blabbering starts

2009-08-09T06:04:00.000-07:00

Yo Nerds,Sry 4 not posting got some issues..won't elaborate about it...i wonder wats love is??/ I'm puzzle..Some say love Hurts..Some Cure..Some say cuzes DESTRUCTION among friends..Haizz... I won't say I'm in Love...that's all thanks 4 reading pls tagg..

2009-07-25T19:59:00.000-07:00

I dunno what i should do haisshh.. i'm so ****ing stress..to fasha i will help no matter what its what i do or should i say what a love guru gotta do..i will help any guy or girl with relationship prob..so i'll try my best kay? Cya..missing her she ignore me 4 too long

AzJumpen

2009-07-24T03:18:00.000-07:00

me 1st vid.. enjoy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oTfzR5rZM40 watch n enjoy

NEW POST NEW DAY

2009-07-24T03:09:00.000-07:00

Wats up my niggers..recently been emo.. but had fun at school some friendship problem missing her..but must dun care about her..so just update blog n change skin n songs.. lol if can i post my jumpstyle vid soon. :P

harlo boring sianzz...

2009-07-04T02:33:00.000-07:00

wads down freaks...sry nvr post 4 so long ..got some problems...
yesterday n some other day went out with my sisters n bro from 1e3..won't elaborate it..
2day just did a vid of my jumpstyle.. will show u guys dun worry lolss just beginning 2 start videoing hard 2 focus cuz got people walk hope u guys enjoy..dun worry its just practise

haizz..boring day

2009-06-24T08:29:00.000-07:00

wats down people this message 2 sarafina not 4 u guys lolz...
When we were in p6 we were like family having fun all that..now we're moving on 2 our lives..
ur beginning 2 hate me..i know the reason why aren't you you the same??
I never scold u,hurt u,curse u....only make fun of u bcuz of ur specs that time u didn't really fit with ur specs..only once and i even said sry again n again..n even said i seriously didn't meant that on purposely..D: i tot we'll be frenz 4 ever but i guess not..
I like u bcuz Ur Attitude..ur attitude is so different then other girls once that's special..
n i like hannah crazy bcuz she chio but not chio enough and her attitude bad that time no offence hannah..seriously ..i'm not joking about ur attitude..u were the one very caring and very very kind...haizz...this sentence is 4 u..
In my shoes, just to seeWhat it's like, to be meI'll be you, let's trade shoesJust to see what I'd be like toFeel your pain, you feel mine Go inside each other's mind Just to see what we find Look at shit through each other's eyes But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful woah They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sO Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful woah They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you...

How would you like it if I did it to you? You called me a stranger since u wish u nvr met me..
and since i'm a stupid person 2 u...
But you cut me so deep, cut, cut, cut, cut me so deep
Never thought you wouldnt want me there
You've proved your point,OKay i get it...
Can't we be just be frenz since we can't b lovers is that so hard???
If i was a stupid person i wouldn't even know wad is A BEST FREN AND LOVE

another day

2009-06-22T00:02:00.000-07:00

Wats down people just change skins..skin rock sia..new song..new me... got a few members of my jumpstyle crew they got skillz hmm..hoping could get more..so cyagoing 2 show u guys some of our pics..hope u guys like it..those who wan 2 join contact me...the jumpers are our crew name..our logo is below it.

another day

2009-06-18T05:43:00.000-07:00

wads down people sry nvr post anything haizz..not feeling good not physical is just emotional.
yesterday went 2 beach road go do class t-shrit and that angela any how tickam-tickam(guess) our classmates who haven't reply 2 her nvr n then surprisingly the price was ok $18 but the problem is we need 2 pay half 2 make the t-shirt then when collect can pay the other half..so we change plan and was that 2 collect all the money 1st then saturday go pay so next week they send the t-shirts 2 my house...
2day i got the weirdest dream....i was crossing the street with kelvin ng and darrell talktalktalk..when suddenly 2 of my crushes appear crossing sarafina,irfasha i was like fixing my shoe laces...2 big lorries when speeding 2wards both of them..sarafina was infront and fasha was at the back.. i got up and then i was like who 2 save but i was trying 2 save both...then i dunno why i quickly took fasha and pull hernya me and then i was like switch places with sarafina and she was with fasha at the middle when suddenly the lorry hit me then suddenly i dunno why blood all over me n somebody was talking 2 me sounded like sarafina,darrell n kelvin n fasha then when i close my eye i woke up...strange dream i guess but even stranger was my head was bleeding and after washing no scar weird huh?

boring day

2009-06-15T03:32:00.000-07:00

Wats down people this is the last time i will post about chio gurl...so how should i began
I know u since k1 till p6 i tot we could b best fren like me n dinie but seems u went ur separate ways so far that i couldn't even see where ur going well i guess i'll just say take care and if ur in any trouble call me but i think u wouldn't since...nvm i won't elaborate about it so bye sarafina thx 4 the moments n how u crush me,cut me deep,ripped my chest,stab my heart so that's it i guess so i wish u a whole alot of thanks seriously thx.

boring day

2009-06-10T23:17:00.000-07:00

wats down people..sry nvr blog well at least blog not dead..2day just knew fifie sick..get well soon
finally she replied my sms lolz...i wan my van shoe!!!!!!!!!!!my new van shoe got wet n quite dirty haizz....

boring day

2009-06-08T23:48:00.000-07:00

wats down people hurt so pain..didn't take pain killers sad..lols yesterday played badminton with frens Darrell(bro/gay partner),Shawn(gay brother),Samuel(MUCHO man),Julius(f...r...e...n...) at hougang stadium bcuz kelvin ng book 4 us thx bro btw he was sick...sad 4 him..
..... .............. Another song lyrics 4 that girl............... .......
I loved you,
You made me, hate me.
You gave me, hate see?
It saved me and These tears are deadly.

You feel that? I rip back, Every time you tried to steal that.
You feel bad? You feel sad? I’m sorry, hell no fuck that!!
It was my heart,
It was my life,
It was my start,
It was your knife

This strife it dies, This life and these lies.
And these lungs have sung This song for too long,
And it’s true I hurt too, Remember I loved you?

I wish I could have quit you.
I wish I never missed you,
And told you that I loved you

Obsessed with the thought of you,
The pain just grew and grew!
How could you do this to me?
Look at what I made for you,
It never was enough and The world is what I gave to you.

I used to be love struck, Now I'm just fucked up.
Pull up my sleeves and See the pattern of my cuts

SRY READERS but i had 2 let the pain out all of it.........

boring day

2009-06-06T00:12:00.000-07:00

This is the song for Sarafina Diana,since i got 2 let her go n stop thinking about her since she has no feelings 4 me.. i'll always b there 4 u in any condition i'm in even if i'm dying

this is the longest post

This is the way you left meI'm not pretendingNo hope, no love, no gloryNo happy endingThis is

the way that we loveLike it's foreverThen live the rest of our lifeBut not togetherWake up

in the morning, stumble on my lifeCan't get no love without sacrificeIf anything should happen, I

guess I wish you wellA little bit of heaven but a little bit of hellThis is the hardest story that I've

ever toldNo hope or love or gloryHappy endings gone forever moreI feel as if I'm wastin'And

I'm wastin' everydayThis is the way you left meI'm not pretendingNo hope, no love, no gloryNo

happy endingThis is the way that we loveLike it's foreverThen live the rest of our lifeBut not

togetherTwo o'clock in the morning, something's on my mindCan't get no rest, keep walkin'

aroundIf I pretend that nothin' ever went wrongI can get to my sleep, I can think that we just

carried onThis is the hardest story that I've ever toldNo hope or love or gloryHappy endings

gone forever moreI feel as if I'm wastin'And I'm wastin' everydayThis is the way you left me

(Oh, I feel as if I'm wastin')I'm not pretendingNo hope, no love, no gloryNo happy endingThis is

the way that we love (And I'm wastin' everyday)Like it's foreverThen live the rest of our lifeBut

not togetherLittle bit of loveLittle bit of love(Little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love,

little bit of love)(Little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love)Little bit of

love(Little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love)Little bit of love(Little bit

of love, little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love)Little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit

of love, little bit of love(Little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love)Little

bit of love, love, I feel as if I'm wastin'(Little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit

of love)And I'm wastin' everyday, hey, hey, hey(Little bit of love, little bit of love, little bit of

love, little bit of love...)This is the way you left meI'm not pretendingNo hope, no love, no

gloryNo happy endingThis is the way that we loveLike it's foreverTo live the rest of our lifeBut

not togetherThis is the way you left meI'm not pretendingNo hope, no love, no gloryNo happy

endingThis is the way that we loveLike it's foreverTo live the rest of our lifeBut not togetherThis

is the way you left meI'm not pretendingNo hope, no love, no gloryNo happy ending
I'm a heartless guy already so goodbye my dear Best FRiend since k1 BYE SARAFINA

boring day

2009-06-04T07:05:00.000-07:00

Wats down people i'm feeling sad lately she nvr on9 n nvr called me...haizz..i no nid wish 1a2 to b peaceful n harmony its alr is..no more fights except 4 faris..so bored think i'll just b a good friend 2 her n just leave her alone haizz..heartbroken 2 pain 2 say...so 2 1a2 people u wan class t-shirt anot then better plan went wan 2 decide the damn design i'm fucking hell doing my part 2 make the nicest sec 1 class t-shirt so faster plan when i dun care by this week must plan alr n i dun care those who cannot reach u won't get i dun care...by next week must meet...Now 1a2 is peacefull n harmony 4ever it will b!!!!!!!
I can't believe i had 2 let it go it hurts it aches my hearts ripping of my chest digging thru it n ripping of every piece of me...btw 2 meilin kpo fren FUCK OFF BITCH/BASTARD dun kpo can between her n me its over PEACE is restored but u 1 fat ass bitch/bastard kpo asswipe..

boring day

2009-06-02T00:19:00.000-07:00

wats down people this message for the bitches n bastards who hate me...i dun care lar about them they got no originality..haiyo please lar people i am who i wan 2 b r u who u wan 2 b i am myself but the darker version but r u all who u r julius i seen him change his more of i dunno
all i know his my group member are separated bcuz of the sepak takraw ball u see the members
was 1)Azrul 2)Kelvin ng 3) Yasar 4) RAIHAN 5)Boon FU 6) MELVIn 7)julius 8)raynald 9)Samuel 10)faizal 11)dinish fyi a gang is just a group of frens who r brothers those who say r not r group of sissy's pls lar u think wat everytime u all keep saying my gang,my gang irritating so wat its my gang i decide 2 b the leader cannot meh punch of pussy's pathetic man...actually it was a club 1st sia then some stupid backstabbers keep saying gang i haven't even recruit sia stupid assholes...those who r thinking of wearing the converse shoe b original i know is good looking but please dun wear bcuz u think its cool u,ur ownself is cool b original..at least wear tat when going out aiyo.. so please remember b who u wan 2 b

boring day

2009-06-01T04:32:00.000-07:00

wats down people i know my blog almost dead lol...june holidays finally woohoo time 2 kill myself lol jkjk..2dae see people blog but only 1 blog i dun understand What THE FUCKING HELL is wrong with melvin seriously u know u hate me u got ur reasons n other people hate me their prob lar wat the hell u wan 2 know their reasons go ask them lar...tot he was a good bro seriously..i cheered him up when tat time he CRIED bcuz raynald scold him bad words pathetic man bcuz of tat cry grow up man!!!!Dun b a sissy when i help u, u remember when hate each other straight away 4get pathetic man i'm the only fucking damn good bro who cheered u up from crying ...seriously people y r my true bros r disappearing..4 melvin gone chase i repeat gone case.. i help his damn group with 3d model when he was fucking bzy playing badminton with darrell tat time seriously what the fucking hell is wrong with u,i help ur group only ur group members thank me not like u fucking slacker do nothing..i make ur group second ok bcuz of my
help with ur 3d model..

Boring

2009-05-27T06:21:00.000-07:00

wats down people 2dae at school went out go inline skating i ok ok with skating...at least raynald understand walau dil damn act sia but nasrah i know her lar she like tat but ok..then suddenly
julius come...then skate skate bored almost fall then julius also abit fall...2dae I quite happy i reserved the backseat woohoo!!!!!!!!!after school go eat waffles then buy pepsi cheap sia $1.00 then go back go cabin play matrix table tennis with kelvin ng,darrell n raihan yasar play my psp -_-"... so good riddance I wan 2 settle the prob alr i fren everybody except china girl!!!n angela not so much but 4 her classmates only haha

The truth

2009-05-26T03:08:00.000-07:00

( Julius Pang)
I actually know him from p5-sec 1 btw 2 julius u didn't know me from k2 we were not from the same school man...you were a good fren but not tat good now..
Tot I could make another Gangstars n u as the righthand man but no..i was wrong...
come on lar when u went 2 darrell house..at his com room u straight away play my psp..withouth permission when u hav ur psp tat time u damn selfish lending me..than after me n darrell singing wan 2 check other songs u straight away go play his com..say i wan play..nvr ask politely or at least nicely just go there say i wan play...haiz..go some1's house think ur the boss sommore is ur bros house respect lar..i also dunno wat 2 type about u there's so much..to those who fren julius i won't say dun fren him..just advicing u 2 keep an eye on him just dun let him 2 backstab u like he did 2 me..so adios..make good riddance 2 julius btw julius think lar me dun wan 2 fren u bcuz of angela pls lar..i'm not tat type of weak fren btw dun anyhow say i nvr take care of frens..what a piece of shit lies man..please lar i'm not like u ok.. Even now i still fren u sia dun think i dun fren u lar i just dun noe wat 2 talk 2 about..

boring

2009-05-26T02:37:00.000-07:00

ok sry long time nvr post...FRiday went 2 support then marcus n ben did quite bad 4 the poomsae tournament then kanna kick out then dun care go canteen eat prata alot...Saturday practise kicking,jumping..monday real tournament 1st opponent 15 years old i going kick he use knee knock my knee pain can feel like go back than just tahan then fight wtf sia judge like kana sai giv opponent 4 then me not even 1 point then got bad injuries...haizz...after tat at home chat with fasha she say julius dun fren me bcuz i dun fren him..wtf lar i wan 2 fren him on after the bowen girls soccer went come back after my tkd training i fren alr then i saw his blog n he make a blog 2 hate me...then i just dun talk 2 him much just keep quite lar now i just dun wan like dun fren or fren 2 childish btw 2 angela i dun wan fite with u alr unless u fite back lar so peace from now n 2 mei lin i dunno i c 1st but 2 julius dun act lar u Emperor this like tat...from now i just fren any1 but 4 julius if he sort arh his brain expired he wait long long...i also dunno wats wrong with julius...haizz..i not angry with him about liking angela but backstabbing me btw remember lar u tat time say u were inside our gang lar this year ok dun 4get lar...trying 2 deny the facts...

SaraFina

2009-05-21T01:02:00.000-07:00

.....I've known u like how many years..Nvr Scold u nvr ever hate u....
.....Ur a fren any1 could hav but i'm very thankful ur 1 of a kind...
*SARAFINA DIANA*
....This r the sentences which I will do n nvr ever regret n this 4 u
I can love you like no one can,I can be your superman,Just take my hand lets fly away,I promise i'll be there everyday,Just close your eyes lets start to fly,I'm gonna love you until i die,Until the day of my death till my very last breath i'm gonna love you When no ones left,
Girldont understand that your one of a kind?So sweet so sexy and just so fine I'm gonna fight till my death just to make you mine ,I'll never neglect you,Never have time to stress you And always respect you,Girl your like a hidden treasure and i promise to love you,From now until forever.
I'm the type of guy that will stand by your side,To wipe them tears when they fall from your eyes,I'm the one you hold when your nights is cold,The one that stays near to fight away your fears,You aint gotta be scared, uhLet me swoop you off your feet cuz i can be your super hero,Do you follow my lead?I guarantee you baby, i'm all that you need See you can change your plans,All you got to do is call on me and i can be your superman

Another day

2009-05-21T00:57:00.000-07:00

2dae waiting 4 Sarafina be on9 than finally but she was playing game...if only she said yes halleluyah i will CHANGE INTO AN ANGEL SIA..but depends....but should i ask her? wat did she think..when i ask her...mayB..i will ask her now..at school some type of bads things happen 2 me.. haiz...

JULIUS PART 2

2009-05-20T05:39:00.000-07:00

I dun care about julius alr so tat's the end of one of my bros..so bored......

another day..

2009-05-20T05:22:00.000-07:00

Wats down people,yesterday fatty patty ask me he wan fren me i say anything but i will keep an eye on him.. 2dae i dun fren julius but fren dil so its like when i gain a fren i lost a brother its so Fucking twisted..nvm than later boring lesson.. the last 2 periods fuck lar faris cuz trouble also cherlyh n the group..mei lin anyhow sae dinesh throw the plasticine stupid kpo kia..got taekwondo kick the padding so hard everybody look at me sia...pie seh lol.. after tkd..walk home suddenly glen called julius like shout..than saw him with dinesh and faizal they sae they were having wore with china girl aka (MOO MEI LIN) then fren julius back then saw the julius handphone the video
so hard 2 see wat china girl do..than go home eat,play psp,blog.. now talking with darrell...now u may die..

Julius

2009-05-19T04:45:00.000-07:00

Wats down people 2dae just figured out about my bro..his angela-spy..blinded by the lies..Then 2day got maths got result its secret lol..than pe play free game..so bullshit sia julius anyhow kick...cb lar he dunno how to pass stop ball also dunno...-_-" me,yasar n boonfu work so hard 2 get the ball...he slacker just stand there like we're his dog nid 2 pass 2 him..
Then his blog say i lousy..hak pui(i spit)...then after school wait 4 darrell so long -_-"...then just go hougang point eat kfc..me n glen go saw ..Ain n 1a1 girls.. they sae hi like girl flirt flirt like tat so scary... the cashier spoke 2 fast tat i sae huh?Huh?Huh?..lol then go home change take bus go school go 4 taekwondo..wear full gear so warm,..then run 5 rounds then go kick on the guard lol than saw shawn play badminton..soon make funny jokes..2dae boring lar not so fun...
Hey Julius ever since Boon Fu like fren me how come so close now?tat time sae choose wrong brother lar tat lar bullshit man..I can't believe we everytime lose 2 dinesh...
this is the last time i will talk 2...bye bye so called *bro*
BTW I knoe u like still like Angela..I will nvr 4get the ring tat hav u n her name....

HOLIDAY

2009-05-17T05:34:00.000-07:00

wats down people 2day not quite happy...2day went 2 darrell house(condo)..first play badminton at tennis court we were suntaning its so damn hot..Than actually darrell mom book at 1pm..we were playing at 12.30pm ..than 2 sian go back buy drink return 2 darrell house..change swim.
WE play catching darrell damn slow..wish kelvin ng were there..we swim we darrell lil bro btw we swim at small got 2 we play the 1 got playground fun when go sliding there were 3 big slides each 3 of us go down...lol here r the moves i make the mummy,spiral twist.360 death..me n darrell slide down 2gether his butt hit my head ouch..than borrow some small boys softball bat n tennis racket..than i manage get 8homerun..darrell 5..julius..3 or 4..than i fall pain sia hit my leg,than b4 sliding i jump than went land slip hit head damn pain...after tat go home darrell ask julius make blog than i was like wtf look password cannot meh julius himself know kelvin ng pass..irritating sia when hav frenz like tat...good riddance might i sae

Last EXAM

2009-05-14T05:24:00.000-07:00

Wats down people finally finish exam..after exam must stay back bcuz of mr lambchop
test wtf sia can't log in then sae wan 2 giv id and pass but nvr..wait 4 them long sia bcuz of some
gay teacher keep repeating wad he sae irritating i finish the test lest that 10mins..then must wait
4 20mins so sian sia, after that teacher see all the rest finish release us..after school play soccer
with gang and 1a1 frenz i can't score bcuz akhsan solo but at least fun do skill woohoo!!
at home play com,then dad fix my so called *New Bike* cycle around than saw sarafina sister
i almost thought sarafina sia..then cycle i curious i faster u-turn than c sarafina,her sis,her lil bro
i just like cross different way than i dunno wat 2 sae at least say hi lar but nvr 2 shy she still CHIO! OK now u can die already

EXAMS

2009-05-12T22:48:00.000-07:00

WaTS DOWN people..just now just finish home eco exam...quite hard heck care..2morrow
last paper science, my best subject lol. Now chatting with Sarafina cya... I kinda miss
her i thought she hate me..but found out no woohoo!!! If only the incident didn't happen
WOW that would been so awesome..but faith turn up so bad luck

Emo-ing

2009-05-11T23:07:00.000-07:00

SAW (GIRL) blog can't believe hold hand with tat guy..his a 2 timer stead already still wan her..
Frankly speaking his a BASTARD who can't choose properly..now from my heart being healed
my heart is now broken more n more.. 2 dust if more this keeps happening

BORED...

2009-05-11T22:54:00.000-07:00

Wats down people...2dae had maths exam CHIA LAK!!!!!!!!...ok lar...Saw (GIRL) happy...
friday-monday study friday 2 sunday didn't absorbed much..Yesterdae study from like 5am-12am of cuz i not crazy i got break lar...YAY THURSDAY PLAY SOCCER!!!

This is 4 MElVIN n BOON FU
I know u both hate n dun friend me,all i'm 2 sae is as a friend I dun hate u both
n its not i dun friend u or anything is the way u all react..so wat i'm trying 2 sae is
if u both wanna b bro's back I'll be glad 2 hav u 2 as my bro's tat's all i'm trying 2
sae both of u weren't bad....honestly speaking u both r the best..melvin i'm like the
closest 2 like comfort u by making u feel better from tat time u know wad i mean.
I'm not being bossy or anything but as group member u should really help..other
than i dun c u as a bad friend...BTW If u both r my bro's back 1 week after exam we
discuss wad 2 do for june holiday.Good RIDDANCE might i sae

About the FAT SWINE

2009-05-07T20:10:00.000-07:00

WAT's down people 2day i just saw (FAT SWINE) blog,his name no longer Dil,Fat swine but
Fatty Patty...2dae when on9 saw nas on9 boring...Nothing 2 do c other people blog
from my class saw Fatt Patty i noe why he hates me i dun giv a damn the worst is
His FUCKING REASON was he thinks his perfect he always say bad things to people.
Fatt Patty dun lie lar... Ur the 1st 2 insult Faris...At camp make song about his dick...
Sae Tablet size... UR the worst sia... U start calling angela Satanla...Fyi(satan=devil)
Well dear Emo's..and frens out there wan 2 know the reason is simple...
1)Flirt with girls..2)Force 1 of my friends 2 stead a girl in my class..3)Say people
fat lar that lar.. he himself is a Fat,cubby,no shame,drama king..4)He even hold nasrah
hands,no shame sia...Then keep saying I dun match with (Girl) he himself wan 2 stead
with a girl that is thin..5)He EVERYTIME i repeat EVERYTIME seat with girl...
6)Irritating sia he...Sing here lar Sing there fuck lar he..7)when we were friends,
it was malay lesson..teacher ask go make 1 group must hav 4 people..then he like wan
2 b in my group,i said sry lar i choose already..he still go 2 nasrah group sommore
inside the group he was like hyper sia...he'll nvr have time 2 feel the menhood in him.
So Fatt Patty if u see this 6 words 4 u girl...No nuts,no glory,No MenHooD..

--A new begining--

2009-05-07T06:24:00.000-07:00

Wat's down people...I recently just made my own blog finally...
So this is my story.......2 dae was a bad FUCKING DAY 4 me...
Co-form teacher anyhow sabo me stand outside class..Dinesh motherFucker sabo...
I sae stand on me teacher he say teacher him then fucking point his finger..
Then stand there 4 few minutes or so...Mr Farid aka Fat ass. come ask why i stand
Then i explain he fuck sia he sae its no my right 2 sae the teacher punish u wrongly
or by mistake..Then he scold me 4 helping Ching leong with maths..ask him fuck
his children lar. Skip skip skip..Recess played badminton...Then (Girl) message
me in malay u can help,she sick cuz i ask her early morning......
That time my heart was not broken yet...so after it was maths..i show DIL
(FAT SWINE) then on tat spot got his attitude lar feel like punching....
She ask me help her giv a maths textbk and meet at hougang point...
Her Best friend (Fat swine) sae I do something bad 2 her then he sae no save
My friends keep saying Azrul got chance lar...Fasha eeh... wooh.....
After that lifelit nasrah sae she n dil will go giv wtf sia (girl) ask me....
then i dun care nasrah sae wan follow anot...I said Dil going? she sae yess
so obviously i won't go.. After school played street soccer b4 that help darrell
group with chinese project..then play..specs drop lens come out.
I play soccer with Kelvin Ng,Yasar,Raihan,Boon Fu,Melvin Gan..When play,
Suddenly Mr Rajans Pet come (Brandon Chen) action play soccer like SHIT
Went home with Glen I caught another Lizard then let it go by throwing it at bush
At home skip skip Saw (Girl) on9 she ask me why i put msn heart broken...
i Explain 2 her....I got 2 chance with her.. hopeless lar..